AWAKEN.

I'm LOST again and again. I've no where to go. Driving aimlessly didn't even do any good to me. I keep asking myself what is it that I want. As always, I can never get a straight answer. Why do I keep on having multiple thoughts?

Multiple thoughts made me lost one thing that has always been very important in my life. I abandoned it, I misused it, I betrayed it! I've always wanted things to be my way. Oftentimes, my ways are twisted, entangled and crumpled with no way out. The only way out was always with me losing.

Losing one, losing two, losing all! None are left now. Perhaps, I don't deserve anyone or anything at all. I'm not a good friend. I'm not a good girlfriend. I'm not even a good daughter! What am I good at? Breaking people's heart perhaps!

I broke people's heart over and over. No, I crushed them hard with no mercy! All due to my absurd-frivolous-confused mind. No one is to be blamed but me, myself and I.

Awaken at this time of my life is rather too late and useless for things can't be undone. All had been done and etched. Nothing I can do will make anything better. Not even a single action.

"Relationships are like crystals, you don't realise how much you love it until it's broken and shattered into pieces."