Thinking hardly.

Think hardly. What had happened to you lately. Worry. Yes. Even tak diperlukan. Tapi masih punya rasa simpati sesama manusia. Kau tak kenal aku. Aku bukan si perobek hati kawan. Aku bukan si kawan yang pendusta. Kau yang tak betul. Berprasangka yang bodoh. Bodoh! Kau la perosak segalanya. Bodoh! Kau tak tahu betapa dalam cinta hati aku untuk kau. Dengan itu, aku tetap hati untuk diam pada sesiapa. Aku bahagia dengan hidup berkeluarga fasa-2 sekarang. Aku tak perlu pada sesiapa. Aku hanya dia dan sayang. Bagusnya kalau kau begitu. Kau memang betul buat aku mengeluh. Tak kisah la siapa  buang siapa. Hati-hati kawan. Aku sentiasa tahu apa yang berlaku. Jaga-jaga.

Notes :

Walau aku terasa bodoh dan malu keluarkan entry nih tapi at least aku puas. Pergi mam nak cakap apa.

Missing you.

Anna,

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me. There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold. I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forever stay in my heart. 'locked inside'. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know. I'm sorry for what i've done. If you were here like yesterday. Aku nak peluk kuat. hmm.. Look, I don't wanna lost you again.

Notes :

You know somebody, and they cry for you. They stay awake at night and dream of you. I bet you never even know they do, but somebody's crying for you. Friend, aku memang tak boleh berhenti fikirkan kau. Nanti mai lepak2 umah aku. Jadi untie yg paling dekat ngan Rafiq.

22, 2 bulan.

Ok. He's ok. Alhamdulillah. Tak banyak merengek. Senang. Terima kasih ya Allah. 22hb ni Rafiq 2months old. Next week on Thursday pergi clinic lagi. So excited nak tahu perkembangan Rafiq. Yet, badan Rafiq dah bertambah 'hantap' hopefully badan ibunya bertambah 'ringan'. huh. Last timbang 1bulan 3.70kg. Ibunya last timbang 89kg. gila! hakhak. and 2nd last timbang 60kg something. Its minus. Yeah!